a girl came in and we talked about the weather. she told me she was cutting down on smoking as she bought a pack of light cigarettes. she talked to me like i cared about her and she cared about me.

i had one of the worst experiences of my working career today.

i am not satisfied. with anything. nor do i see satisfaction ahead. i want to leave everyone and everything behind. i want to forget who i am and who i want to be. i just want to be happy with today and not care about tomorrow.