i know i've said this before, but i am really getting sick of being good. sticking up for friends...being understanding...trying to not be selfish...being responsible...being level-headed. i'm sick of it. and i'm sick of hiding how crazy i really am. hiding all my flaws. i just want to say, "fuck it, man...fuck it." and just do it. whatever it my be. people say i'm 'mean' now...they don't know the half of it.