as the wise yorke once said..."it's a mindfuck...it's a complete mindfuck."

now while he was referring to the hype around his band, i'm referring to life. yes, all of it. it's all like sleight of hand...specifically the cups and ball gig. it's like, it's here then it's gone. and all the while, i'm trying to keep it together and not explode or just say 'fuck it.' it takes a lot of effort for me to attempt some type of normalcy....ah, you wouldn't understand. shove it.