i am a selfish person. but what makes it worse is that i realize i'm a selfish person. it would be fine and dandy if i just thought the way i thought was the way it was supposed to be, but i know that to be false.

well...this evens out my last entry.

i'm back down in one of my holes...in one of my moods. i don't like it and wish these waves of sadness would stop washing on my shore. ha. that was a pathetic analogy...i guess it fits right in.

i wonder if she knows its not her fault......