"pattern against user- dilated

bastard waiting for nothing

circus carny guarding

the gates of heaven

like stuck in limbo abduction

wormed our way through

distant earth"

woke up at 7.45am...went to bed at 1am...no alarm...no nothing...i found that a bit interesting...i've done it for a couple days in a row now...(hey i have to fill this with something...)

i don't talk to very many people...

i'm just treading water now...trying to keep afloat...why didn't someone tell me to try earlier?...i blame you...but it's nobody's fault but mine...i don't have anything to look forward to anymore...at least not in the near future...it seems (i use 'it seems' too much) that i'm always dreaming about what !could! happen and never really focus on what ^is^ happening...stupid me.

"this intuition

limps with the cane of suspicion"

i forgot to mention in the day yester that i also made a phone call from wisconson (you are a fool...i know)...i spent most of the time listening on how evasive manuvers (i'm pretty sure i spelled that wrong) were being made...and then i defended that offensive ones...i always pick the weirdest ways to act...i can never just be normal...

"sand falls through

time portals"