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2005-09-07 11:24 p.m. dead again i got a job at village pantry. ben has an annoying laugh. he always comes in my room and rummages around...he took my style of speaking. i have to change again. it seems like i always have to change. i hate change. life is change. i don't think anyone will ever understand me except randy. and even then... i am wasting away. the food i buy isn't meant for eating. it isn't fit for keeping people alive. i have to wake up early again. just like old times. i'm sure my body will revolt. just like old times. i hate my body. the physical makeup of my being is ugly on all levels. it disgusts me. randy has almost made it out. he is lucky. and then he isn't. i am mine. old. previous |