i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel

i've become coarse and hollow. i do things i didn't used to do. i do things i figure she does.

i'd do anything for revenge.

early morning driving on no sleep is no fun. i had to pull my beard and slap myself to stay awake. even then i was feeling like i could doze off at any moment. and i was ok with that ending.

i think it's funny how i change after the fact.