i hate myself. this is evident. i need to stop thinking. that would solve most of my problems.

i went out drinking with some friends. or friends of a friend, i should say. and i just watched people. i'm a people watcher. they fucking piss me off. all of them. i was looking for a fight. i was looking for her. people are such simple creatures. including me. (see begining satement)

i like to think i'm different. but i'm just like everyone else.

or at least i can pretend.