my pain is self chosen
at least so the prophet says
i could either burn
or cut off my pride and buy some time

i've been sick the past 24 hours. i have purged my stomach twice. it's times like these that make me really talk to God. i mean, sometimes i'll share a laugh with him once and awhile...but being sick just makes me have a heartfelt face-to-face. he tells me i shouldn't be doing some of the things i do...i agree...and then i go into fevered sleep. that's the way it works.