today i turned 19. yesterday i got a chair. the day before i slept with a girl...well...i guess she's old enough to be called a woman. just slept mind you...nothing more...well...that's not entire-ly true either...but true enough.

as is evident by the previous examples, it appears as if i have been on the up and up...but it doesn't feel like it.

i spent the day alone...by choice.

i was thinking how i'm gonna make it through...how i was going to make it how it should be. i think i discovered a way...if only...if only...