i just found out a little about the world. i want out. i'm so foolish. thought they'd think like me, a logical assumtion, i thought...we're all the same...everyone has the same basic outlook...so terribly and horribly wrong...i didn't think i'd be this far off...this isn't for me...i certainly wasn't made for this world...it's not that i didn't see this coming...it's just that i hoped...i hoped against hope i'd find someone who...ah...fuck it...what's love mean anyway...nothing...absolutly nothing...there is no love...love is just a myth poets and scientists use to describe the undescribable...love isn't real...it doesn't belong in this world...at least i have somewhere else to go...where everything makes sense...where i learned what a world should be...what am i feeling you ask...nothing...empty...empty...

i certainly won't be going back...